Miss You Finally

But I miss you finally

But I miss you finally

Try to remember all these years

We shared the love we shared the tears

Thought that forever it would be

I realize you lie to me

I still hold on

Still dream of days when we were one

You played with my heart

You played with my mind

But I miss you finally

Right from the start

My love made me blind

But I miss you finally

All of these promises you made

This 4 letter word it seems to fake

Baby it's hard to understand

Now that you're gone

We reached the end

I still believe

Still dream of days when we were one

You played with my heart
You played with my mind
But I miss you finally
Right from the start
My love made me blind
But I miss you finally

You played with my heart

You played with my mind

Right from the start

My love made me blind

13km Away From You

23 December 2007....Today, while on the way home from penang, after taken lunch at tg. tualang....i found myself was only 13km away from u....i bought some 'dao sha beng' n really wish to meet you since i was only 13km away from u or even jz 15mins of driving distance.....however....i still could not reach u...da 15min of driving distance n 13km seems so far away....i hv da feeling tt da opportunity is rite infront of me yet i couldn't grab it.....which is da same feelin when i hv u by my side but i could reach deep into ur heart......

2 Years Before and 2 Years Later

21 December 2007.....Today, i'm standing helplessly at the same places, looking at the same things n imaging the same thing as two years back when me n she first went to penang where our relationship was started 2 years ago....景物依旧，人面全非.....everything is still da same as 2 years back, or some even getting better, however, me n her relationship is getting worst n from da moment of love creation till the moment of love termination.....today is the 45th day of our separation or 7 more days to our 2 years n 1 month anniversary if we still r being together happily....2 years back at the same place is da most happiest moment we shared together, atleast for me.....2 years later at the same place, i suffer alone da sadness n leaving the tears of sadness at the past 2 years footsteps.....sometimes i hope mircale could happen as everything could be getting better for us since 2 years earlier n i do not hv to suffer the sollow of 2 years later today.....

为什么人没有选择性忘记的能力？

记得以前上cognitive psychology时，人是有一种能力叫做selective attention，能把熟练或做关了的事情automatically prossed，但为什么就没有选择性忘记的能力呢？最近，每一次我出街时，我都会无时无刻想起和她一起逛街的日子，总是会像以前一样帮他留意些漂亮的衣服或装饰品，甚至没有她陪我一起买衣服时，那感觉总是没有像以前逛街时那么的兴奋和开心！今天会到槟城旅行，而我知道我在这段时间又会一直想起她，因为那时是我和她的感情开花的时刻，也是对我来说和她在一起最开心的时刻，在那期间所发生的每一秒每一刻的时间我是一辈子都不会忘记！我和他共创的两年感情里所发生的时刻我都不想忘记，我希望能够一辈子把它守在我心里，但在这期间我不想想起这些回忆，我不想有任何的幻想，不想给自己任何的假希望。我现在感到很无助，为什么我不能把一些选择性的记忆给暂时忘掉，好让我自己好过点。希望以后会有人发掘这种能力，好让人能把一些不想记得的事情暂时给忘了！

不知道现在她的世界是如何，不知道她所最求的自由她找到了吗，但我希望她都能永远幸福，一辈子都能开开心心，天使真的会晤是无可跟谁她！

原来我Love You So Much

I thought tt i could jz take u as my normal fren, a fren with da same way of treatment n care which i gave n provided to da others. But it appears tt i fail to do so. Everytime i tot i could not care of ur stuff much, but in da end i'm getting to worry bout you more. Sometimes i tot i could jz ignore u, but i couldn't do so. At first, i tot tt it simply jz becos i afraid tt u would hv bad impression bout me or might pissed off of me. Well, it proves me wrong although i hope it is right. I hate to admit it but it is still true tt i still love you so much. Everytime when i wish to ignore u, i would become more and more worry n care bout u bcos it is still like da old days tt i do not wish anything bad would landed to u.

People always started to regret to when they lost something, then later only they know how to treasure it. I not sure whether did i treasure u well when i hv u by my side, but one thing for sure is tt i never being regret loving u although i lost u.....yet but i still lost u. My fren told me tt every single man n woman is an angel in heaven....however they lost their wings n fall into da human world when they fall a love with each other...so don n never hurt ur lover bcos they hv lost their ability to fly back to heaven....I dunno know whether it is a myth or wat, but I hope every of fren who engaged in a couple relationship could love n treasures ur lover well so tt ur lover wouldn't get hurt n u wouldn't regret in future....真心希望天下有情人能和心爱的人永远快乐

直到现在我才发现

爱你有多深

不管哪里都有我和你的回忆

一切早已无所谓

所有痛过的痕迹

我想念你想念过去

没有人能把你代替

再重来甜和苦

我愿共度baby say the I love you

原来我还love you so much

没有了你就没有我

YEA love you so much

比爱自己还要多

YEA love you so much

想要给你幸福

重爱一次with you

懂不懂懂不懂我的心

懂不懂懂不懂我的心

只想和你在一起

生命才有意义

也许是风也许是雨

我不逃避爱的命运

你就是我的过去

不管未来到哪里

一直是你永远是你

我们要让爱再继续

我的心不会再改变

你给我快乐再也没有谁

原来我还love you so much

不再压抑真实的我

YEA love you so much

走过时空的交错

YEA love you so much

不再让你孤独

重爱一次with you~

懂不懂懂不懂我的心

懂不懂懂不懂我的心

你真的还爱我吗？

今天临出门和你的一小谈中，你告诉我你还爱我。以前当我听到你这么说的话，我一定会毫无保留的去相信你，也一定会感到很兴奋。但今天我并没有这种感觉，并不是因为我不再爱你，而是我并不知道你自己清楚知道你真的还爱我吗？如果你是真的还爱我，那为什么当我牵你手或碰到你时，你会觉得反感？如果你真的爱我，那为什么你不能接受我as who i am？如果你真的爱我，为什么你对我没有信任和信心？繁体字里，“愛” 有个心在中间。我相信他的意思是说当你爱一个人时，你要全心全意，毫无保留和真心地去爱你爱的人，而且你也要真心相信你爱的人，也应该接受你爱的人的心！你可以做到吗？或许个人有个人对爱的看法，但对我而言这都是很重要的。如果你没办法接受你爱的人的一切，那就不算爱。虽然我依然还爱你，但我不能接受你接受不了我的一切。

The Story of Us

11 July 2005 - this is the first day I met YOU in utar.

Early August 2005 - the day when I got to know YOUR name and I said tt YOU looks like one of my colleague while i'm working part time previously and YOU said this is jz a lame excuse for a guy to know a gal.

Late September 2005 - the day where I was starting to get to know YOU more.

9 October 2005 - OUR first day out to sunway pyramind n watch OUR first movie, The Myth.

13 October 2005 - the day where ME and YOU to snap our first picture at sunway.

20 October 2005 - the first I fetch YOU to mc after u came back from hometown during study week.

29 October 2005 - the first time I accompany YOU to take ur bus back hometown.

11 November 2005 - the first holiday trip tt I hv wif YOU to genting and the first day I hold on your arms.

14 - 18 November 2005 - the first time I went out wif YOU for 5 days in a row.

18 November 2005 - the first time YOU n ME hug n kissed.

19 - 27 November 2005 - the first time I started to miss YOU due to ur absent from my surrounding.

28 November 2005 - the day WE started our relationship and OUR first time couple holiday trip.

1 December 2005 - the first time YOU came to my house.

31 December 2005 - OUR first and da only new year celebration.

14 February 2006 - OUR first Valentine's Day celebration n the first time I 'jib' stars.

10 March 2006 - the first time WE bake a cheese cake.

11 March 2006 - the first time ever YOU planned n celebrate MY birthday, which is da most happy birthday I had in my life.

19 March 2006 - the first time I receive a short letter from YOU.

Mid April 2006 - the first time WE study together for OUR final examination.

19 May 2006 - the first time WE hving trip to Pulau Redang together.

5 September 2006 - the first time I plan n organize a birthday party for YOU

6 September 2006 - the first time I spend together wif YOU during ur birthday.

Early December 2006 - the first time YOU join ME n my family for holiday trip

12 August 2007 - the first time WE went to dogathon in upm.

12 September 2007 - the first time WE fly to kk.

14 September 2007 - the first time in OUR life to reach the peak of mount kk.

14 September 2007 - the first n da only time WE quarrel during holiday trip.

6 November 2007 - the first time I didn't celebrate ur birthday wif YOU.

7 November 2007 - the day where WE end our relationship.

29 November 2007 - the first time I din do any revision wif YOU for da final in this two years time.

14 November 2007 - MY first sem break holiday which without YOU be wif ME.

18 December 2007 - today, the day tt I finally realised tt WE wouldn't be able to be together again n the end to OURs story.

Roller Coster of Feelings

12 Decemeber 2007...Today I'm riding a roller coster of feelings from morning till da nite....my feelings was blended with shock, surprise, happy, and bitter. Phew...really a brand new experience that I have encountered after all this years of life.

From this morning till the afternoon, I was pretty shock when I found tt I have forgotten those management notes tt I read for past 10 days. My feeling is like wtf.....is almost exam n my mind is quite blank....I was wondering tt how could I survive da last paper today. Luckily during da exam time, I was surprise that those stuff tt I didn't read n focus much didn't came out in the exam....n I really hv to thanks malcx n ting for helping me to revise on the criticism of planning...oh man...it cost almost 10 marks there...thanks guys...phew...exam over

It was happy to spend some time in MV after da exam to hv dinner n watch movie....wao...at last today I hv tasted da Carl's Jr burger in MV....wao man...I spend almost 25 bucks jz for a burger, a cup of refill'able' drinks n fries....wao...I hv never spend tt much jz on a burger...but anyway it still taste nice n I was happy with it.....later we head for da Chipmunk movie...hey seriously...it was very nice...highly recommended...personally imo I think it should be on show during da christmas rather than da AVP2...hey guys...really go n watch....

Recently dunno why...I was not so interested to hv walk or shopping in MV...it contains a lot of memories tt I hv with her....a lot of joy n happiness things happened in MV before I n her is being together n till I break up wif her last month....actually all those experience n memories is a happy n memorable one...but dunno why this happy memories caused me to hv a sense of sad feeling....I really dun hv any idea wif it...da more I walk in MV, da more I recall da happy moment I hv wif her , n da more I feel sad...maybe I feel wasted for da relationship or I still cant forget bout her although I told myself billons of times tt I should forget bout it....kinda weird rite...I myself also couldn't figure out of it....

Anyway....my life was still excited today although all this blended n mixed feelings....oh ya...wai sung...hope tt ur decision for buying da pair of shoes will be maximized....wahahaha...

甜甜愛情SMS

世界上最完美的小说。时间：一生一世；地点：无论何处；人物：我、你；事件：大宝贝爱小宝贝。

人生忙忙碌碌，日子酸酸甜甜，缘分简简单单，联系断断续续，惦记时时刻刻，祝福长长久久！

世上最重要的感情是自己与自己的感情，若有一个人能爱上你所爱的自己，那就太好了，我愿成为这个人，你愿意接受我吗？

一辈子多长我不知道，缘份有多少没人知晓，这条路有多远并不重要，只要我们的心依靠，再远也不觉得路途遥。

从现在开始，你的手机将受到我24小时短信轰炸，你只有两种选择，一是你的防线被彻底摧毁；二是说你爱我。

没有说出的话并不是不想说出，留在心底的爱才是最让人牵肠挂肚的爱，不敢说的话才是最想说的话。

如果爱你是错的话，我不想对。如果对是等于没有你的话，我愿错一辈子。

……

我们不再是朋友吗？

12 December 2007....是你告诉我就算我们分手后，依然还可以做回朋友，但为什么你对我的态度总是那么的冷淡。差不多两个星期的study week没见面，我还以为今天可以和你一起谈论考试的事情！但我总没想到当我站在你面前时，我好像吃了透明药水，你完全没理会我！起初我还以为你在烦着考试，但当别人走近你时，你会和他们谈起考试，你会和别人谈谈笑笑。虽然我们已分手，但我还是很像关心你，可是你所给我的感觉就是我好像在烦着你。

我记得以前每到考试前我们总是一起温习功课...但在这个study week里我觉得很寂寞，甚至无法专心读书，心里总是在担心你不知是否能明白考试的科目！虽然我们已分手，但天真得我总是在想你是否也会关心我，担心我能否应付考试吗？毕竟我们曾经相爱过两年的时期....但看来这些都是我太过高攀了我自己。或许你是有在关心我而我并不知道吧....看着你对别人笑哈哈，对我冷酷酷的真得令我很难受。虽然我并不知道你是否特地还是并不能接受我，我已知道以后的路我要如何地去面对，但我心里还是有一个疑问.......我们以后还是朋友吗？

Get Well Soon My "Deer"

Yesterday, Dec 10, 2007...my little kancil was involved in an accident due to the careless driving of my little sis. It is just a small accident and my sis is not injured, however, the only kancil that i could travel along with need to undergo a serious operation.


Well, looks pretty nasty from the pic...even my registration number changed from 3118 to 311, thinks that I should go and have a try on 1+3D to try on my luck...well, rest well my "DEER", hope you will get well soon and I could travel again with you during my holiday....Haih, without you, it will be very inconvenient for any outgoing during my holiday.